Pride....

Is going to be the death of me....

 

 

 

 

I've watched someone literally waste away because of pride, and yet I was not aware how much pride I have myself.

 

God keeps getting the most evil looks from me because I've had to swallow my pride allll week long. It is the hardest thing for me. I just hate asking....I hate needing. And now I may be in another ASKING situation for a whole week and its making me sick. I have to be delivered from this. I am asking God for help on this. The only thing that has ever literally made me feel sick was being around violence or fighting.... I don't like drama and confrontation. I'm way too chill. This pride thing though.....it's killing me

 

If anyone else has had pride issues and come through it

I'd certainly appreciate how you did it. No matter how much I've prayed for it to go away and went ahead and bit the bullet and put my pride aside it is STILL bothering me.

 

How do people take and take with no issue?? I can't do it. My friends think I'm crazy because I HATE asking for things... or taking things. They literally have to MAKE ME or just do it and not even tell me so there's nothing I can do about it.

 

Maybe its rejection im afraid of. Maybe it's the feeling of "Owing" someone.....I can't deal today lol.

 

Introvert Behavior......*shrugs*